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  1. Failure

    I took this internship to build my resume, to hopefully get a job out of it, and of course to try and make more money than I do serving. So far, it looks like I will make the same if not less amount of cash that I would as a server. I am incredibly stressed out and unhappy there. Everyone is so disconnected. I have a huge amount of work to do with no resources and very little help. Not to mention the fact that I have literally no experience doing what they want me to do so I basically sit in my cubicle for eight hours a day and try and swallow my panic.

    I hate the way I feel at this internship: overworked, lonely, and completely erased. No one sees or understands my trans identity. They do not appreciate the work that I have done for them.

    I mean, I am grateful because I feel like at least now I know I cannot/will not survive in corporate america, but that makes the future seem so bleak to me. I am so broke and in debt right now. I am more behind on everything because I had three weeks without income due to the transition into my internship. I barely have enough money for rent right now. I feel like I am working so hard and being repaid in stress anxiety and negative monetary returns.

    I am failing myself. This job gives me myriad reasons to tear myself apart when I do not need any more of those as it is. I desperately need friendship, but I do not have friends. Everyone is absent. I feel utterly alone and just fucking terrified of what is going to happen in the next few weeks. I am considering ending my internship early, but then I will not be able to pay off my credit card like I planned, or be able to go to Savannah.

    I am so upset, and consumed by this weight of my failure in the face of expectations. Worst of all, I continue to spend just days alone with nothing but my own sadness.

    Someone, please, help.

     
     
  2. Laverne Cox stanning for Beyoncé at the VMAs

    She is so cuuuuute

    (Source: beyonseh)

     
     
  3. iwriteaboutfeminism:

    Tuesday afternoon, Ferguson protesters march in downtown St. Louis, from City Hall to the US Courthouse. 

     
     
  4. evolve-within:

    all-that-sheeran:

    imeginedragons:

    videohall:

    These videos blow my mind every time

    idk what  i just watched

    THIS IS TRIPPY AS FUCK

    So creative, I love this!

     
     
  5. Some Handy Examples of How Non-Sex Working Feminists Can Aid in Critiquing the Sex Industry

    1. Your women's studies prof: Class, do you think pornography enables male entitlement?
    2. You: Well, according to this essay I read by someone who does porn, it doesn't make a lot of sense to just critique it as a piece of media + not a site + product of highly stigmatized labor. So, yes, it does, but that may largely be beside the point of where and how male violence occurs in relation to pornography.
    3. That lady at your local NOW chapter: It is WRONG for men to purchase sex, therefore we must make it illegal.
    4. You: I agree that capitalist conditions create coercive and abusive situations for those in the sex industry, but carceral solutions don't address that underlying issue.
    5. Your younger sister: *points at a Maxim magazine cover* Isn't it wrong that there are all these sexualized pictures of women everywhere?
    6. You: It's wrong that the male gaze is all-pervasive and our idea of the ideal woman is profoundly racist, sizeist, ableist, and cissexist. It's also wrong that these images exist within the context of a violent patriarchal culture, but the images themselves are not wrong.
    7. Some rando in your ask box: How do we end the abuse of people in the sex industries?
    8. You: Let me link you to this blog by sex workers advocating for workers' rights.
    9. Your boyfriend: Why is there so much bad sex in porn?
    10. You: Let me show you this essay on porn by a sex worker.
    11. Your girlfriend: Stripping is exploitative.
    12. You: Let me show you this academic article written by a stripper.
    13. Your aunt: Dominatrices probably think they're empowered but really--
    14. You: Here's a thing written by a sex worker.
    15. Your grandpa: Prostitution--
    16. You: Here's a thing written by a sex worker.
    17. Your cat:
    18. You: Good point, let me read you this issue of Prose & Lore out loud.
    19. You: *signal boosts our words + shows up at rallies + emails legislators + gives orgs like Abeni + Sex Workers Project all your damn money*
     
     
  6. unhistorical:

    Interviewer: But the question is more, how do you get there? Do you get there by confrontation, violence?

    Davis: Oh, is that the question you were asking? Yeah see, that’s another thing. When you talk about a revolution, most people think violence, without realizing that the real content of any revolutionary thrust lies in the principles and the goals that you’re striving for, not in the way you reach them. On the other hand, because of the way this society’s organized, because of the violence that exists on the surface everywhere, you have to expect that there are going to be such explosions. You have to expect things like that as reactions. If you are a black person and live in the black community all your life and walk out on the street everyday seeing white policemen surrounding you… when I was living in Los Angeles, for instance, long before the situation in L.A ever occurred, I was constantly stopped. No, the police didn’t know who I was. But I was a black women and I had a natural and they, I suppose thought I might be “militant.”

    And when you live under a situation like that constantly, and then you ask me, you know, whether I approve of violence. I mean, that just doesn’t make any sense at all. Whether I approve of guns.

    I grew up in Birmingham, Alabama. Some very, very good friends of mine were killed by bombs, bombs that were planted by racists. I remember, from the time I was very small, I remember the sounds of bombs exploding across the street. Our house shaking. I remember my father having to have guns at his disposal at all times, because of the fact that, at any moment, we might expect to be attacked. The man who was, at that time, in complete control of the city government, his name was Bull Connor, would often get on the radio and make statements like, “Niggers have moved into a white neighborhood. We better expect some bloodshed tonight.” And sure enough, there would be bloodshed. After the four young girls who lived, one of them lived next door to me…I was very good friends with the sister of another one. My sister was very good friends with all three of them. My mother taught one of them in her class. My mother—in fact, when the bombing occurred, one of the mothers of one of the young girls called my mother and said, “Can you take me down to the church to pick up Carol? We heard about the bombing and I don’t have my car.” And they went down and what did they find? They found limbs and heads strewn all over the place. And then, after that, in my neighborhood, all the men organized themselves into an armed patrol. They had to take their guns and patrol our community every night because they did not want that to happen again.

    Angela Davis on violence and revolution (1972)

     
     
  7. (Source: noahpictures)

     
     
  8. olort:

    il-tenore-regina:

    pallet-town-julie-brown:

    yoncehaunted:

    *SHOUTING TO THE HEAVENS*

    I A M  F U C K I N G S C R E A M I N G 

    That was intense.

     
     
  9. punkrockysmut:

this is why afropunkfest is the best festival. EVERYONE there was soo beautiful. i’ll post more vids and pics tomorrow.

    punkrockysmut:

    this is why afropunkfest is the best festival. EVERYONE there was soo beautiful. i’ll post more vids and pics tomorrow.

     
     
  10. morgrana:

    spoken-not-written:

    phlilester:

    spoken-not-written:

    whoever invented cramps is an asshole

    ur an 18 year old boy

    NOT JUST FEMALES GET CRAMPS WTF I GOT CRAMP IN MY FOOT FROM ALL THE SEX I’VE NOT BEEN HAVING OKAY CRAMPS DONT JUST HAPPEN IN THE LADY POCKET REGION OR WHATEVER

    the lady pocket region